the Gs

(Spirit) Guides, Goddesses, Gods, Grandmothers, Guardians.

When I was in my very early twenties I saw a psychic who told me things about myself that no one else knew, and no one else saw about me.

One of the big things was that I was psychic too, but in a way she was lovingly jealous of. ‘Your numerology is so good, other people try to change their names to get it close to being that powerful in their intuition, and you are born with it’

The other thing that stays with me was ‘ I only know one other person with numbers like this, and he can barely leave the house because he is so intuitive and sensitive to energies, so I’m impressed that you are out and about’

Shortly after seeing her, I started getting serious about developing my intuitive gifts, because I finally saw them as valuable gifts.

I had already started dabbling in meditation, in tarot cards, and had a lot of stories about spirits making noise and my intuition guiding me out of trouble and away from danger.

Then automatic writing started to actually work for me ( it was very uncomfortable at first, both physically (I used to get headaches with it) and mentally- because I was worried I was going crazy) I had wonderful roommates at the time who I could talk to about it with, who kept their eyes on me and made sure I was supported and I could trust that they would intervene if something wasn’t right with me. ( I had to work with this fear a lot over the years)

I got into holistic healing work - acupressure, massage, reiki etc. and took course after course and started my massage practice with the intention of incorporating intuition into it, then that is what people came for more than anything else, and spirits started talking louder and louder so I embraced the mediumship snd intuitive guidance side of things.

I then did a Bhakti. A 413 day meditation practice that was intense, life changing and really introduced me to my Gs.

I was in a class that had guided meditations.

I get bored easily and felt limited by those guided meditations. So I wandered off on my own journey and found two things. First. The Balinese high priestess that the instructor worked with showed up in a mediation and invited me to work with her for 30 days in meditation space. Second, a group of twelve beings showed up which was very mysterious and, not knowing what to do with them exactly meant I put them on the shelf until I did know.

I meditated with Ida for 30 days and it was my introduction to stepping into altered consciousness, connecting with the consciousness of another and being able to clearly communicate, go on healing journeys, and get guidance and wisdom for all my curious questions.

Months later I went to Bali and had some wild experiences that opened me up even more. I met another high priestess who I asked about this mysterious group of 12 and what I should do with it.

She advised me to do a Bhakti. A set amount of time dedicated to sitting with this group. She said they clearly are here for me and I am meant to work with them, so sitting with them in that meditative state and inviting them in one by one will give me the answers.

I decided to do 48 days. I would spend 3 full days with each one and have a transition day from one to the next so I’d have time to say goodbye to the last one, be introduced to the new and could research them a little.

Half way through I felt like 3.5 days wasn’t enough and I wanted so much more. So I decided after the 48 days were up, I’d switch to one a month for a year.

To say it was intense is a bit of an understatement, but it was the most profound and joy filled and incredible experience!

They are deities that are connected to my ancestry. To both sides of my family, and to places I’ve connected to before in previous lives.

Since then it has grown to include many more than the original 12 Gs and I suspect that isn’t going to change anytime soon. Since I continue this practice and is a regular part of my life now.

My grandmothers.

My great Grandmother on my Dads side was an Obeah woman. A traditional medicine woman, a witch doctor, a healer, a spirit talker.

I never met her in life, but she has guided me quite often through mine. As I started into the holistic world my Dad would always say I took after her. Her wisdom was lost for 2 generations. No one wanted to be associated with her or with Obeah. (It is still technically illegal in many Caribbean islands) so her children and her children’s children benefited from her gifts ( she saved my Dads life when he was very ill as a child) but they never learned a thing about it. But that gift wasn’t going to pass me by. I have picked up where she left off.

My Grandmother on my mom’s side, taught me unconditional love, compassion, patience and kindness. And as she became an ancestor she has been a very present guide and presence in my life.

The Gs have been my teachers, more than anyone else. I have taken a lot of classes, courses, workshops, and in all of those spaces I still felt like an outsider, like I had so many more questions than answers and felt like they were lacking a depth that I craved and knew was important. They all gently opened a door ever so slightly, then I modified, delved into, and worked with the Gs to make it make more sense, to go deeper, and to get the full depth of knowledge that the classes were missing.

I also found depths of knowledge through books, through trial and error and experimentation, and the curiosity to explore the unseen realms.

The wisdom and guidance of the Gs was never meant to be only for me.

I weave their wisdom in every session (recorded ones too!) they are the guiding forces along with the Gs of who I am in session with or community with.

And now they want to have their wisdom support people to go deeper within themselves as well, through seasons and cycles. Which is how I work with them and have for the past 10 years.

It’s their offering of the apple from the wisdom tree.

It’s up to you if you want to take a bite.